Today I have not been feeling well. Exhausted, lethargic, dizzy, just overall in a blah type of mood.
I am now 30 years old and can honestly say it never got old leaning on my mom to make me feel better. Even if I was just having a bad day, she'd listen to me go on and on venting and knew how to make me feel better. She was always one of my biggest cheerleaders and encouraged me any way she could even up to her last days.
Today after work, I had the biggest urge to pick up the phone to call her. Not thinking, I picked up my phone with a split second sense of relief that I was going to be able to feel better speaking with my mom and that split second diminished so quickly when I was like "oh wait..." Going on the 3rd month now, not feeling well today and not having her there to lean on is taking a toll on me again. I have been having my come and go moments just thinking about her, ever since that awful day of September 26th. I find myself just tearing up, sometimes all out crying, just thinking about her.
When will this get easier?
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Monday, December 2, 2013
The Manager Life
Soo I have been the regional coordinator, which is the person who runs the program where I work, since October now. I have to say its had its ups and downs so far, as any job does. However! This morning I went back to work after a nice 4 day weekend and literally as soon as I walked in door, I had two staff approach me with a complaint about something that happened over the weekend. Now I know its part of a managers job to deal with staff issues and complaints, but really?! Tag teaming me literally as soon as i walk in the door after a long holiday weekend? Needless to say, i spoke my mind not letting them get the better of me and told them they complained about the opposite previously and basically that i am damned if i do and damned if i dont and if they dont like it so be it. Lol said it in a nicer way but that was the jist of it.
Spoke my peice and then I spoke on the phone to the person whos been training me, is also a manager and always has my back. She said "listen hang in there. They are going to try to tear us down and they really need to see that we are remaining as a joint force. I always have your back and all of these experiences only make us stronger, teach us how to address and handle these situations and only make us great at what we do!!!!!"
Ugh what a way to start back after a long weekend but thankful I reached out to vent because I felt so much better and the day did get better :-)
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Here we go again...
It's been a few months since I last posted! I even forgot about my blog for a while there but am glad to be back...
Well I wanted to update regarding my mom and her breast cancer. After she went off chemo about a year ago or so, they put her on hormone therapy which wasn't having very many results so they decided to give her chemo pills. Long story short, mom had a very bad side effect from it the first time she took them (jaw pain, throwing up, etc.) and wasn't taking them consistently due to fear of having the negative side effects again. Well after some months of being on the chemo pills (after her doctor changed the time of day she took them to relieve her of the side effects), she had a doctor appointment this past Tuesday, the 18th, and as expected her tumor markers increased and the tumor itself increased by a centimeter. Her doctor told her to not even bother with the chemo pills and she is going to do a full pet scan and after those results come in, they are going to figure out another treatment for her to do.
Keep my mom in your thoughts and prayers. I could tell last time I saw her, things weren't going as well because her breathing seemed to be off but I am glad the doctor is going to try another treatment. I hope they give her some type of med that can be used with an IV in the chemo room so my mom isn't in charge of her meds as she obviously won't be consistent with them if she suffers a bad side effect. Shes been fighting this for two years now and continues to have to fight down the road so please take a min to say a little prayer for her please? :-)
Well I wanted to update regarding my mom and her breast cancer. After she went off chemo about a year ago or so, they put her on hormone therapy which wasn't having very many results so they decided to give her chemo pills. Long story short, mom had a very bad side effect from it the first time she took them (jaw pain, throwing up, etc.) and wasn't taking them consistently due to fear of having the negative side effects again. Well after some months of being on the chemo pills (after her doctor changed the time of day she took them to relieve her of the side effects), she had a doctor appointment this past Tuesday, the 18th, and as expected her tumor markers increased and the tumor itself increased by a centimeter. Her doctor told her to not even bother with the chemo pills and she is going to do a full pet scan and after those results come in, they are going to figure out another treatment for her to do.
Keep my mom in your thoughts and prayers. I could tell last time I saw her, things weren't going as well because her breathing seemed to be off but I am glad the doctor is going to try another treatment. I hope they give her some type of med that can be used with an IV in the chemo room so my mom isn't in charge of her meds as she obviously won't be consistent with them if she suffers a bad side effect. Shes been fighting this for two years now and continues to have to fight down the road so please take a min to say a little prayer for her please? :-)
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Stressed, a little overwhelmed...
Long time since I posted!!! Well this post is dedicated to my stress that I have been feeling in regard to finding a job. lol I am interning until June (only a little under 2 more months!!!!) :-0 It's crazy but while I am going to miss NFMS, I need to find a paying job for the upcoming school year. I have applied to sooo many CT and NY schools for a school counselor job as well as other positions in the schools just to get my foot in the door at some school. In addition to middle and high schools I have applied to West Conn for a counselor position as they are looking. I have also begun to apply to other agency counseling jobs and use that other masters in community counseling in case a school counselor position doesn't come through. I am also going to register for my license in counseling as that opens a lot more doors. I honestly have never felt it was more difficult to find a job than it is right now. Most likely a result of this being a career type of job I'm looking for and not just another job to bring in some income... I am looking for something I will enjoy doing. While I have come to the conclusion that a school counselor position may not come through for September 2012, I will look into other type of counseling as well of course .. please everyone, keep your fingers crossed for me that I find a decent job by September at the latest!!!!
In other news, Jason and I are doing well with our business and don't forget that if you want the best deals AND want to earn cash back for shopping, search our web portal where you can find the best prices on just about anything. It's definitely a "you don't want to pass up" type of thing. Getting into the business itself is also definitely worth it!!! Contact me if you want some details on this business by either being a customer or a business owner like ourselves.
HEALTHWISE
My mom is doing well. She hasn't been on chemo for a while now and is just receiving the bone strengthener treatment and hormone shot to help with her breast cancer. She is in good spirits and is visiting again this Sunday so I am looking forward to her company again! I miss her!
My brother-in-law is doing well. He no longer needs the feeding tube and is doing well. My sister and the boys seem to be holding up well too. His sight is still not back but I am hopeful it will come back in time!!!! He's a fighter and strong so keep him in your thoughts and prayers that he will CONTINUE to fight and get stronger.
Anyways, I hope everyone has a happy, healthy rest of your week and I will try to update this more frequently!!!!
In other news, Jason and I are doing well with our business and don't forget that if you want the best deals AND want to earn cash back for shopping, search our web portal where you can find the best prices on just about anything. It's definitely a "you don't want to pass up" type of thing. Getting into the business itself is also definitely worth it!!! Contact me if you want some details on this business by either being a customer or a business owner like ourselves.
HEALTHWISE
My mom is doing well. She hasn't been on chemo for a while now and is just receiving the bone strengthener treatment and hormone shot to help with her breast cancer. She is in good spirits and is visiting again this Sunday so I am looking forward to her company again! I miss her!
My brother-in-law is doing well. He no longer needs the feeding tube and is doing well. My sister and the boys seem to be holding up well too. His sight is still not back but I am hopeful it will come back in time!!!! He's a fighter and strong so keep him in your thoughts and prayers that he will CONTINUE to fight and get stronger.
Anyways, I hope everyone has a happy, healthy rest of your week and I will try to update this more frequently!!!!
Sunday, March 11, 2012
All good news...All stuffed into one blog :-D
Haven't updated in a while so here goes as I sit in bed not ready to go to sleep yet... There has been some great news surrounding us lately and I want to share it with everyone so here goes!
MOM
She's doing well... We had a short scare there for a while in February though... After arriving back in NY from being in Indiana for a month, she went back to her doctor who felt as though her mass had increased in size so she scheduled a PET scan to get a better look. After waiting 2 long excruciating and anxiety-provoking weeks, it turns out my mom's mass hadn't increased at all actually... The scan actually showed that there was absolutely no liquid in her lungs anymore and the nodules in her lungs were gone. The cancerous mass had decreased slightly as well... They are continuing to give her the bone strengthening treatment and switched her hormone pills to a hormone shot in which she goes once every 2 weeks until April and then down to once a month afterwards so all is looking up!
HERB
Well where to start with this miracle!!! Herb miraculously is doing well and holding his own. After suffering two cardiac arrests in December he has made a tremendous turn-around and is going back home on March 13th! It has been one roller coaster for this guy as well as my sister and their three sons and everyone else in both families but he has made it through! What a fighter! Tests show no signs of a heart attack so it is puzzling at this point what caused his cardiac arrests but he is doing well. He is going to continue attending rehab of course and they decided to definitely put the defibrillator in just in case his heart goes out of rhythm again, it'll shock his heart back into rhythm. More as a precaution.
JASON AND KELLY
No health concerns here but we just became business partners in Market America. This is a great opportunity to earn a high paying residual income and includes a 2-3 year plan... This can all be done from simply doing comparison shopping and providing the best service to our customers. Now I now what some people would think. "Why should I go to their portal to shop?" "What's the difference if I just go to target.com?" Here's the answer...It's really a win win for both the customer as well as us in that the customer also earns a check (cash back) from making purchases through Market America's site (you can shop our web portal at www.shop.com/priceisright) and you can also save hundreds of dollars in doing so! By going to our web portal, not only will you have access to MA's great products but thousands of other stores as well, such as target, and earn cash back. Instead of always putting your own cash into someone else's cash register, wouldn't it feel awesome to have the money put into your own register too??? If you are looking for a product and can't find it, let us know and we can do the comparison shopping for you and find the best price for you! We just went down to Flushing, NY this past week for a mandatory training and both are ow Certified Independent Market America Distributors! How exciting :-D
Anyways there's some all in all good news and hopefully it keeps coming!!
MOM
She's doing well... We had a short scare there for a while in February though... After arriving back in NY from being in Indiana for a month, she went back to her doctor who felt as though her mass had increased in size so she scheduled a PET scan to get a better look. After waiting 2 long excruciating and anxiety-provoking weeks, it turns out my mom's mass hadn't increased at all actually... The scan actually showed that there was absolutely no liquid in her lungs anymore and the nodules in her lungs were gone. The cancerous mass had decreased slightly as well... They are continuing to give her the bone strengthening treatment and switched her hormone pills to a hormone shot in which she goes once every 2 weeks until April and then down to once a month afterwards so all is looking up!
HERB
Well where to start with this miracle!!! Herb miraculously is doing well and holding his own. After suffering two cardiac arrests in December he has made a tremendous turn-around and is going back home on March 13th! It has been one roller coaster for this guy as well as my sister and their three sons and everyone else in both families but he has made it through! What a fighter! Tests show no signs of a heart attack so it is puzzling at this point what caused his cardiac arrests but he is doing well. He is going to continue attending rehab of course and they decided to definitely put the defibrillator in just in case his heart goes out of rhythm again, it'll shock his heart back into rhythm. More as a precaution.
JASON AND KELLY
No health concerns here but we just became business partners in Market America. This is a great opportunity to earn a high paying residual income and includes a 2-3 year plan... This can all be done from simply doing comparison shopping and providing the best service to our customers. Now I now what some people would think. "Why should I go to their portal to shop?" "What's the difference if I just go to target.com?" Here's the answer...It's really a win win for both the customer as well as us in that the customer also earns a check (cash back) from making purchases through Market America's site (you can shop our web portal at www.shop.com/priceisright) and you can also save hundreds of dollars in doing so! By going to our web portal, not only will you have access to MA's great products but thousands of other stores as well, such as target, and earn cash back. Instead of always putting your own cash into someone else's cash register, wouldn't it feel awesome to have the money put into your own register too??? If you are looking for a product and can't find it, let us know and we can do the comparison shopping for you and find the best price for you! We just went down to Flushing, NY this past week for a mandatory training and both are ow Certified Independent Market America Distributors! How exciting :-D
Anyways there's some all in all good news and hopefully it keeps coming!!
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Shop Smart, Save Big with Price Comparison Shopping at SHOP.COM
Enjoy loads of saings from your favorite stores through my web portal! Happy shopping!
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